I truly believed I was doing everything right.
As a mom, wife, employee, and Christian, my life was full. I was productive, responsible, and faithful, or at least I thought I was. My days were packed, my calendar overflowing, and I was serving God in the ways I understood best.
But then God interrupted my life. Not in a dramatic way, but quietly.
He began to speak to my heart, revealing something I did not want to accept:
“You are busy, but you are not in My best plan for you.”
That moment marked the beginning of a major spiritual shift in my life.
Leaving a Home Church and Entering a Season of Transition
Not long after, God began to move my family out of our home church, the place where we were known, active, and deeply involved in ministry.
Looking back, I can see that God had been warning me through dreams and quiet convictions. But I was slow to understand and even slower to respond in prayer.
So when the change finally came, it felt sudden, painful, and unplanned.
We left everything behind, our church responsibilities, and ministry roles, and entered a new church environment where we simply sat and listened.
We were not serving, not volunteering, and no assignments.
Just stillness. And in that stillness, I encountered something I had never properly faced before; Emptiness.
The Hidden Cost of Constant Busyness in Christian Life
At my former church, I was always busy, prayer team, children’s ministry, choir, rehearsals, and all these came with weekly meetings. I was constantly needed and constantly active.
But when all of that stopped, I realized I had built my identity around spiritual activity, not spiritual intimacy with God.
And I also realized something else, I didn’t have deep Christian friendships.
Not because I wasn’t friendly, but because I had never slowed down enough to build meaningful, accountable relationships.
I had been surrounded by people… yet felt alone.
Coping With Silence: Entertainment and Spiritual Discernment
With all the noise gone, I struggled with silence.
I filled it with prayer, and if I’m honest, with seasonal shows on Netflix.
At first, it felt harmless. A way to rest.
But over time, I noticed something shifting in my spirit. The more I watched, the more restless I became. I found myself more emotionally influenced, more distracted, and less spiritually sensitive.
Then God spoke again:
“Stop watching the shows.”
I resisted.
“God, this is how I unwind. You’ve already taken so much from me.”
But the conviction didn’t go away.
It became clear that what I thought was entertainment was also shaping my thoughts, emotions, and spiritual sensitivity.
The Power of Christian Friendship in Spiritual Seasons
Around that time, I began connecting with another woman at the new church. One day, I opened up about my struggle.
Her response changed everything.
She said, “I’m in the same season. Look at it this way;, God is saying Instead of finding pleasure in these shows, why not find your pleasure in God?”
In that moment, I realized Christians are not meant to walk alone in every seasons of our spiritual growth.
That friendship became a source of strength, accountability, and encouragement during a difficult transition.
Lessons From Moses: Why Christian Community Matters
This season reminded me of Moses in the Bible.
Moses struggled deeply with God’s call. He felt inadequate and unqualified. Yet God responded, “I AM that I AM,” confirming that the mission was not dependent on Moses’ strength but on God’s power.
Still, Moses needed help.
God gave him Aaron, someone who could speak when he could not.
And in battle, when Moses’ hands grew tired, Aaron and Hur stood beside him, holding them up until victory came.
This is the power of Christian community and friendship.
We are not meant to carry everything alone.
Why Christian Friendship Is Essential for Spiritual Growth
One of the greatest lessons I learned in this season is this:
Christian friendships are not optional, they are essential.
They strengthen faith, provide accountability, help us stay focused on God, and carry us when we are weak.
God often uses people to sustain us in seasons.
Finding Purpose in Stillness and Obedience to God
A year later, God led us back to our church. But I was no longer the same person.
The need to stay constantly busy was gone. The desire to please people had loosened its grip. And something deeper had been formed in me; stillness, clarity, and dependence on God.
What once felt like emptiness became transformation.
Final Reflection: A Prayer for Every Believer
If there is one thing I have learned, it is this:
Sometimes God disrupts our busy lives not to harm us, but to realign us.
So my prayer is simple:
May you never walk alone in your journey with God.
May you have true Christian friendships, people who strengthen your faith,
who hold your arms when you are weak, and who walk with you until obedience becomes joy.
Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor:
10 If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.